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Friday, 30 January 2015

Meeting Most Haunted

You know when you arrange a trip out to a place where you have to drive quite far and as the day approaches you kind of can't be bothered going? Well that happened as last weekend came. But I also know that when I'm there and more so, on the way home, I'm glad I went. I returned to Hack Green Nuclear Bunker to investigate alongside GCUK with guests - Yvette and Karl from 'Most Haunted'. 
I went with ex PPS member Sue. When Yvette and Karl arrived we were stood right by the entrance and so it was us who got her warm 'Hellooo', which made me blurt out "Did you get lost on the way?" 
Yvette started to explain about roadworks where they live.... Instantly had this thought of 'Jesus I'm having a chat with Yvette!' 
It as brief but to be honest I could've gone home happy then. I was struck by how pretty she was in the flesh and she was the same height as me. Then I saw Karl who was taller than I expected and also warm and friendly. 
The investigation itself was rather slow but by 2am Sue and could do things our way and so we ran a ouija board session and had family members come through for a group at the board. They were impressed. 
It was a good night in the end since I had my photo taken with Karl and Yvette. 
It was a long drive home and I got into bed at 5:30am 

Thursday, 15 January 2015

Body changes

January is cold and dark, and did I mention cold? I've been very good at hitting the gym hard with a three day split routine which makes me feel like I've been beaten up. My body is growing and defining, that's for sure. My son and I have been playing as ourselves as characters more and more recently. Just us and our imagination is all we need.   
His first front tooth has come out and it reminded me that he will be seven this year. Damn! That's moving too bloody fast- even as I relish each second and make the most of our time together. 
I think I feel more complete than I've ever felt. I feel less apologetic about being how I am. I feel unconventional but sane. 
I have a couple of visits to make this weekend and that should help make me feel part of society at large. 
Friday today. Let the fun begin. 

Tuesday, 6 January 2015

Growth

Growth, both in character and muscle, is what I feel as we start 2015. Internally and externally I'm becoming a better me, or at least, a me who I am happier with. I no longer feel a slave to bad moods or defeated as a person by others around me. I feel strong, bold and have both hands on my steering wheel. This year is a back to basics year. Maybe be a bit more sociable perhaps with such things as visiting friends more. 

This is my aim. 

Sunday, 4 January 2015

A unified idea about spirit

A unified theory to explain the memory of particles and spirits. 

 Planets and stars have the same elements as us. But each planet is composed differently with different sizes and strengths. Mars is red and rocky and small. Jupiter is gassy and large. 
If all the planets collided into one. What would the whole appear like. A mix of all components, yes, but would the largest planets matter be dominant? No, because they are gassy. The smaller denser elements would appear dominant. 
Much like a potato curry. The potatoes are the largest element. But the curry powder is the prevailing factor which dictates the strongest feature. 

I am a mix of my parents cells which retain features associated with them. Some people will say I look like my mum or act like my dad. Others will say my grandad was just like me or even I just "looked like your uncle". 
If the planets are the ingredients and the sun is the nuclear energy which powers us immensely but not forever, then our particles within us are a mix of previously living flavours and yet the power of life (life force/sun) inside us 'generates' new flavours and living cells as well and ALL these particles are further 'flavoured' with our experiences which we live through. Anger, jealously, sadness, joy, being famous, love etc.. 
We have kids and pass on some of our SET to the child. These in turn become influenced by the new experiences of the child but also are still STAINED with where they formally were. Much like a new white pool ball Staines with chalk marks and is never truly white again ...Ever. 
If you soaked the pool ball in curry it would be forever tainted by that feature no matter how much it's washed. 
Our cells are a mix of tainted ones and newly born white ones (although technically colourless really) 

Our spirits too may be coloured much like the appearance of the planets. Mars is orange/red and Earth is white/ blue and green upon first observation but upon closer, more up intricate viewing it's made up of all the intricate colours of everything in our lives such as trees, stone, metals, gems, all colours of paint etc But if earth represented one single cell of your body, it would have properties or flavours or "characteristics" which 'stain' it a certain way. It would be the blue green white cell mostly. 
There are multiple earth like planets in the universe and there are multiple earth cells in our bodies. As well as many many other 'planets' 

Could spirits retain that stain? Is a spirit without a body is like a lingering smell after cooking? Chips smell one way during cooking but Chips that were burnt in the oven have a scent of there very own....a stain of what they went through. 
Is this some explanation of why spirits are seen as coloured? (We have had spirits tell us that we each give off a COLOUR to them, blue green yellow, etc.   It's not standard reincarnation at play, as that requires all the particles to remain in the same arrangement.....but rather, some particles from the lives lived, coloured by experiences which give off a dominant characteristic when they are viewed as a whole like many planets crushed together. 
Our spirits are collective stains existing as a lingering smell can in a newly formed body and can live on after our biology has failed. 
A bedroom has a smell which becomes its characteristic and is made up of what used to be there before it became empty of its inhabitants. 

Could this explain why a spirit retains some memory of things, but may not have a good enough grasp to perhaps answer us as precisely as when it also had a body in which to store and access this information? 



Saturday, 3 January 2015

Midnight round up

After playing and finishing the game Shattered Dimensions where alternative universes containing alternate Spider-men existed, we play acted with us being the characters. Jacobs mum rang to ask if we could change plans of him going home today and have him stay at mine for another two nights. Both these things led to a conversation about the nature of time and reality. 
This led to me suggesting Back To The Future as a good kids film. I was surprised when he agreed to watch it. 
What followed was firstly my surprise at how many swears there are in a kids film rated PG and secondly, how gripped he was by the film. I've never seen him lap anything up so fully and completely. I had to pause it a few times to explain the complexities incase he wasn't following but he was eager for me to hit play again. "PLAY IT, I want to know what happens!" 
That was possibly the best film experience of my life. If we hadn't received that phone call from his mum then who knows when we would have finally watched this film together, if ever. 
I'm not gonna forget this moment for years. 
The film itself seems as dated as expected at first but once they are back in time in the 50's it doesn't really matter. 
I thoroughly enjoyed this film as much as when I was a kid, thanks to my sons enjoyment. 
It's one of the best concepts for a film ever and the last scene of the film almost blew his tiny mind. (Roads?, where we're going, we don't need roads') 
He's desperate to watch the sequel too tomorrow. Personally I remember the sequel as the best one, it's so clever. 

Simply amazing and magical after all these years.