Gym and the new love fantasy

I'm becoming more and more like a gym machine. My eating habits are becoming streamlined and regimented to give me the best results. Putting on muscle mass is central to my thoughts at the moment. It's a shame that only I get to see the results in a way. But then I'm doing it for myself. I'm still enjoying the gym sessions which I'm glad about. Who would've thought that clean living could be so much fun? 

Today I'm visiting my aunt for tea after I go to the cinema. The warm weather had teased us but it seems wet again. Easter is nearly upon me and I'm looking forward to having my son more over that period. 

I do love Sunday's. 

One other thought going through my mind is about a girl, yes, a girl. It's more of a fantasy really about a girl mate of someone I know. As soon as I saw a photo on facebook of this person, I was smitten. She glowed somehow in my eyes. Nothing else would've come of it but days later my mind still showed her face. I went back and scrawled back to that fb photo and then sent a message to the friend I know saying how 'super pretty' this girl was. I was surprised when the friend said "why don't you join us for a walk on Sunday and meet her" 

"Not a chance" I said. "She deserves better than me". 

The thought suddenly terrified me. This girl wouldn't look at me the same way at all! it was ridiculous in the real world but in my own mind I'm in love with the idea. 

As you know, my mindset has been that I'm done with partners as that ship has sailed and always brought pain. 

I'm nearly forty one, short and bald, and I don't think even putting on muscle will alter how shit relationships are. 

I'm still hopeful that fate will intervene but not knowingly believing for a second that it will. 

Still, it's nice to feel warm inside at the thought of a new love, fantasy or not. 

March and muscles

Ah an early morning in March, a nice fresh.....no wait!.....it's bloody freezing. 

There's sleet dropping from the sky. 

Doh! When is the warmth coming? 

The afternoon brought sun eventually though. I have a couple hours left before I hit the gym. Heavier and heavier squats each visit. My own scales arrived at work today marking weeks of weighing myself to log weight gain. I'm looking forward to easter holiday with my son and then it's a couple of months to my sons birthday. I'm feeling good in myself and think I'm balancing my interests correctly. 

I guess a family visit isn't too far ahead just to balance that area up. 

My workout went well but there's always one interaction with some guy I think is being a dick. There's always someone tossing a dumbbell down or even their own drink just so someone notices. 

Today there were  a couple lads who were sat right under the end of the barbell on the squatting area. Just obnoxious. 

I am very happy that I managed to work out so well without injury. 

I think I'm learning. 

I watched the new Cinderella movie and really did not like it.  I moved on to Defiance on Amazon instead- more my kind of thing. 

Ok alone.

I've just not had enough time to gather my thoughts long enough to blog properly on top of working over, hitting the gym and keeping up with media. I'm not complaining because my life is full but it bothers me I'm not logging it. 

My main focus is that I'm ten stone and doing a 5x5 workout but I'm not gaining weight and haven't for two months at least. I've started to do two milkshakes with oats, peanut butter and a banana in a day in the hope of seeing a change. 

I have paranormal bits to do but don't have a proper investigation planned until May. 

My son and I continue to play act stories we create and he even started a Destiny save yesterday. He's growing up. He told me to stop giving him a kids knife and fork this weekend. Maybe I try and slow his growing up. 

 

I'm still living life without friends around me. This is half my own fault. I have to admit that I'm not lonely but I do see that it's odd. My boy keeps me in touch with my path. 

As spring nearly is here I feel great about this year. 

I simply don't have time for a girlfriend. 

Hey..why did i even say that? 

Well I've started another blog page with the best intentions. It's somwhere to explore my experiences from my paranormal work. If you want to check it out, head to Http://whitehouseparanormaljourney.blogspot.co.uk Or don't...what evs.

Pinch me

Now that Stuart Torevell has also followed my personal WHITEHOUSE INVESTIGATION's Facebook page I feel like I'm actually dreaming. He only follows three teams, one of which is Most Haunted related and the other two, I'm in. 

It's got my fellow investigators pumped up. 

It really is like following the yellow brick road over the horizon. 

The gym went slowly again but I felt I'd done something more worthwhile. I did my first ever 5x5 workout. 

I did an hour of reviewing from Mill Street Barracks investigation and posted audio of my findings. I have my finger in many pies and don't know which will bear fruit first. 

I would write more but I'll bet I'm about to wake up soon. 

Showbox contacts

To get home after work to the that the stars of Most Haunted have messaged me, followed my ghost team page or followed and spoken to me on Twitter gives some indication of what my weekend has been like. Yvette said I had some good ideas and hugged me goodbye. I was still reeling from her recognising me from meeting her last month. 

I had a good chat with all the cast and its led to some pinch me moments. It seems this paranormal work is the right path for me since birth. 

My back is aching again tonight and that frustrates me as I long to be lifting in the gym. I hope this is the last of the snow before spring is sprung. It's becoming a memorable year already.