End of June 2015

The temperature this week is meant to be 33 degrees in Leeds. This is a record in my lifetime I think. There's global warming for you. I've not had prickly heat yet this summer and hope to avoid it totally. But I still can't help but love the bright start to each day. 

I dreamt of my youth last night and walking the streets with my friends. The only difference was that it was snowy. It's been decades since we've been able to do this for real and I miss it. I guess it's the same forever everyone and I'm luckier than most with how much free time I have both at home and in a way, at work. 

Health can kill

We went to play Jurassic Park at Shibden Park in Halifax on Saturday. The late afternoon sun shining through the trees cast a glow on my son's smile. 

It was nice playing out together. 

On Saturday I went to my sister in laws 50th birthday and I stayed among the alcohol drinkers until 11pm where upon I had to leave. It's difficult being sober among drunks. 

On Sunday I woke up far too early and had no carbs with my egg breakfast. This led to me almost collapsing at the gym again. Instead I made it home and went to bed for an hour. God I felt awful. Don't workout without carb energy. 

I simply played Dragon Age for hours afterwards.  

I genuinely thought I may die from blacking out or heart attack while at the gym. 

I felt terrible. 

Today

What an easy start to a working day. I've had to drive to Wakefield and wait for the place to open. So I've been able to tackle my podcasts for a bit. I'm slowly putting weight on from the gym which I'm happy about. 

My son will be getting the figures he bought with some birthday money tonight so I'm looking forward to that. 

The warmer weather's here in general but it's cloudy today. Not that you care. 

I'm trying to read the book THE MARTIAN before the films out. I'm also midway through the review of our last investigation. 

Lots of work to be done. 

Quantum blues

As the large hadron collider is switched on again after a two year hiatus, the news on parallel universes increases and I continue to read Physics books trying to get a grip on it. The world is a construct of our consciousness it seems. Just as I see the best evidence of paranormal phenomena, the reality itself is brought into question. 

Today I also heard a record which brought back memories of my ex and the pain in my stomach really cut. There was no longing for her as such, it was just the past and the now rubbing up against each other. I guess the real hurt was the passing of time and no one to hold me now. 

I feel I've still got a lot to give but when I look in the mirror I just see death. 

I'm still happy in me though. But then I don't have to look at me. 

Maybe I can jump to one of these parallel dimensions and swap with another me, one who is better looking and long of hair and heavy on wit. 

My son is giving me more and more pleasure as his waffling becomes more clever and interesting. When I look at him I can't help but grab him and cuddle him hard. I'm lucky to have him. 

The warm weather is almost here now and so I grab my lime juice and close the curtains. 

Life's too busy to put down on paper right now.

I totally see to be out of the habit of blogging this year. I blame the gym mostly along with just writing other things. I have much less time from the gym workouts and have little energy afterwards. Even my movie watching has reduced a lot. I'm seeing some gains again though as of today after stuffing my face with foods. 

It was just recently my beautiful sons 7th birthday. We went swimming at Sandcastle at Blackpool last weekend which was fun. He had a great weekend so that was pleasurable. We love each other so much. 

I'm not managing to see a great deal of Emily and Connor these days as they sometimes don't even live at home.

The weekend just passed I finally saw evidence of the paranormal which I found utterly bewildering and therefore extremely exciting. I now know there's either spirits or possibly a kind of group telepathy at play.

2015 has been a great year so far. 

I also met in person, the only object of desire I've seen since the end of my marriage and was left cold. She was lovely but just the height difference stopped me in my tracks. This was before she even said she had no integration in me. She doesn't need a short, bald, old guy as her beau. 

I also realised that I was scared of giving away even an hour or so of my own spare time outside of seeing my son and so that conclusion feels wonderful to be aware of. I need only my kid. 

I'm writing a story about a haunted house here and there for a friend still and enjoying that. I have a few investigations to write about too which I don't really have the time to do. 

Life so just a busy thing right now. Plus we have the paranormal convention approaching too. 

I'll try and write more as I go.