After being at work on Sunday, it left Monday not feeling like a Monday. Even after having my son as usual, I couldn't quite place the day in my head.
My plans for a cinema double bill tonight have been threatened from two angles. Firstly, overtime could be expected and secondly I have now received COD Ghosts for PS3. Two reasons which both have their pluses.
As I returned my boy last night and stood chatting to step daughter and my ex wife, it felt exactly as it had three years ago but without the agony of not being able to leave. The feeling of pleasant indifference is what makes it absolutely fine now that we are apart and was in many ways one of the reasons we didn't work. My life has featured indifference greatly, be it how my father treated his kids or how I have viewed so many people in my life so far.
'Indifference' is a surprisingly versatile thing. It can be used as a 'not bothered either way' feeling. It can be a defensive Shield against situations which are trying to attack you. It can also be a weapon which really hurts like when my father used it towards me.
It's quite a remarkable thing to have in your arsenal.
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