Reviewing and chillaxing.

I hit the gym after work but didn't do cardio. I didn't have the energy left anyway to be fair. Once I'd eaten and watched the latest episode of The Walking Dead I made myself finish my dictaphone review of the ghost investigation last week in Glusburn. I even reviewed my line vigil from Bradford Warehouse case. Sadly no evidence EVP wise was heard. 

I'm so looking forward to tomorrow night as it's the start of my day off break with my son. It's not much but it's better than nothing. I don't know what we are doing because he will only put his foot down if I make plans. My mood is a positive one and I'm trying to keep eating better. I'm also being mindful of drinking coffee late in the day. Since the clocks went back I've felt more naturally awake. 

I just settled down to ps4 Minecraft whilst watching Human Universe and a damn update has slowed down my progress to an almost standstill. 

I trust you are well and happy wherever you are, and if not, change things. 

Happy

I used my Sunday after the gym to clean my house. Not just the usual dust but the skirting boards and the odd cobwebs which sneak up on you. I had one friend visit me and the following that I visited another friend. When you add washing and vacuuming the van, it left little tv time. It was still a rather pleasant change though I admit. 

After last weeks investigation in Glusburn I find myself starting the review of the evidence, buoyed up with the news that I shall be returning to investigate Hack Green Bunker but his time with Karl and Yvette of Most Haunted. 

I'm really looking forward to that. It could be argued that their programme was the tipping point to get me where I am today- investigating wise. 

I have one mate who is elbows deep in doing up his families new home and my other is reliving his twenties with booze and different girls on the go. It all sounds like hard work and has made me relish curling up on the sofa with a tv programme or a good book. I've cancelled some more subscriptions today and don't think there's really anything else to cut. 40 really does seem to represent a new phase for me. 

I don't want to slip into too much of a comfortable mindset though as I want to improve my appearance rather than go to seed. I'm never going to be attractive but I want to still try where I can. 

I'm enjoying not spending and I'm enjoying being quiet. 

Happiness is the most important thing. 

A future comes into view

After a short conversation at work, I was led to do two things. Firstly, oil one day off with my son over his OCTOBER holiday to reduce the guilt a tiny bit that he has to go to school holiday club when off school. 

Secondly, I looked at houses to rent in denholme which led me to see a 3 bedrooms house with off road parking and other attractive offerings, all for the same as I'm paying. The biggest plus of all is that it's the village next to my son, about ten minutes away rather than the thirty which I currently am. 

But as good as this discovery was, I'm in no financial position to move and still have my 'yearly' contract to see out. 

The ball started rolling in my brain and the finding has worked as an incentive to fuel my saving up. I cancelled Lovefilm and Empire magazine subscription and thought about how to further save money. The thought of living nearer my boy and step kids is a pleasing one. But truth be told, Denholme is neither as pretty or as tranquil as Silsden where I currently reside. 

The basic thing about this all is that I now have at least one plan for my future. Something to aim for. 

My worry though (and there is always some cloud) is that I have no actual problem with where I am, plus I rent off my boss, who I'll have to disappoint by moving out. I'm sure he'll find some other tenant mind you. 

All I really need now is more overtime. 

The gym is finally showing results I can see. Is this down to my recent whey powder? Doubtful, not so soon. I can't see myself buying a second tub. Not now that I'm saving up. If I moved I'd probably have to leave the gym too which would save me £20 per month. Although, you have to have something for your pleasure. 

Gogglebox

I had mentioned the programme Gogglebox to my family this year and they had got into it after saying the concept was daft. Well today I watched my first episode of it on 4OD which led to me watch ever available episode in one day. I bloody loved it. Best programme ever. 

Now I do love my sundays but I've not laughed so much in one day as I have today. That's not all I've done, I should express. I went to the gym at 8:30am and felt physically sick and dizzy when I pushed myself too far. I think it was because of no breakfast but just a protein shake. 

I also went to the cinema to watch IRA drama '71. 

At home I watched Arrow series 2 too. 

Great day. 

Weekend again

It was great to see my step daughter last night as I took getting see 'Annabelle' which she cowered in her seat through. She's got important decisions about her education to make and is feeling the pressure. Luckily I wasn't faced with such options. That's the benefit of not being bright. 

I dropped my son a chocolate rice pudding in and his face lit up which made me feel so happy. 

The week crawled to an end and I feel I haven't watched as much this week. I'll make up for it this weekend though. The gym is like a black hole of time as I try push my body to grow. The only place I've seen results is my arms and since I haven't eaten sugar for three months and have proteined myself up to the eyeballs, I find that a tiny bit disappointing. 

The weekend has landed after two hours delivering straight from work. I listened to the Adam and Joe podcasts from 2011 I think, laughing to myself as I drove. This is my second time around them all but I've forgotten most of the material. Podcasts bring me weekly joy as I drive around. 

Right now though I'm parked up one hour early, outside my son's school as I watch The Strain on my Kindle. I love love love catching up on tv series over the weekends. I have eaten makeshift honey on wholemeal bread sandwiches concocted from what I'm taking back home today. But I'm looking forward to tonight's pizzas which is my one cheat meal of my weeks allowance. 

So, cinema, gaming and playing with my son is what is in store for me over the next two days. 

Sounds great. 

Watch watch watch and bored son.

My day started at 6am as I watched The Strain in bed followed by True Detective. The clock started ticking and the need to plough through tv series before the cinema was strong. I drove to the cinema and watched my second Hindi film ever called Bang Bang which I found out was a remake of Knight And Day. This was followed by The Maze Runner which I really enjoyed. I was relieved to get out if the cinema and pick up a tub of Whey Protein powder from the gym. Yeah, yeah I said I wouldn't do that......I don't know what to say. I knew I would at my brothers when I heard my nephew was trying to get into it to bulk up. I wanted a part of the action. 

My eating was all over the place today and I stuffed tea down followed by a shake and then hit the gym. I was far too full to realistically not feel shitty after. 

The day was run out with gaming such as Destiny and Minecraft  as I listened to podcasts. 

Another day alone watching stuff and occupying myself. But, in all honesty....another happy day. 

I hope this week is a quiet one finishing off series and reading. 

A quiet life. A happy life. 

One thing I would like to write is that this weekend I worried my son was getting a bit restless with me because he had played with his toys, we had played as characters and played on ps4, yet he still wanted to do something new but refused to go swimming, the cinema or park. He had a mental block when I asked him what he did want to do. 

I worry that this is what's to come. I'm an adult and he's a kid and there will be a gap that is more apparent at some ages and not others. Perhaps the answer is to force him out of the house. 

Gym supplements or not?

I told myself I'd never go down the supplements route to get a bigger body.....and I still haven't. I did however have a conversation at the gym where I stated that 'supplements just seem to turn you into a fat fucker'. This was my opening reasoning for not bothering. What I was told in return is that once you start taking Whey powder for example, you have to keep taking it, and the minute you cease, your body will slowly reduce to the ordinary size. Ultimately your body self regulates to its natural state. That's a lot of money to flush away for basically nothing. 

Instead I will try and eat more although my luck with the 24 hour Asda is making that difficult. 

24 hour Asda seeming to mean it's open only 24 hours a week. 

Saturday nights, shut. 

Sunday mornings, shut. 

Sunday tea, shut. 

Monday morning, shut. 

I went on Tuesday morning and they were literally on fire and so shut again. 

It reminded me of Only Fools And Horses "I thought you said this was open 24 hours a day"

"Yeah, but not at night".

I need to relax my gym thinking. By that I mean just be comfortable that I'm lifting weights each week and my body will respond as best it can. I have no goal, really. I certainly don't want to throw more money at it. 

Having watched Gone Girl tonight I now look forward to a weekend at the cinema playing catch up. I'm inundated with media to get through but it's all good. The world outside my bubble seems full of fighting and disagreeing on a world scale. Why can't we all just get along? 

Within my bubble it's soon my sons parents evening followed by an early Halloween party at school. He's happy and that's the only thing which matters. Because of that, I'm happy too. Outside of that I don't see what I've got to give to others. My life is self reliant on doing what I want only. I kept asking myself if I'm wanting company but the idea peters out when I do anything.  

Oh well, my body aches satisfactorily and so I must try and sleep now even after coffee and toast. 

Son and chill time.

My son has been with me an extra evening this weekend and I also received the offer to have him two extra hours as standard every Saturday. This is good news for me and although I always fear the changes ahead,this one has proved my theory wrong. Some change is good.

I had plans to take him to York but all my explaining why it was cool, caused him to dog his heels in and say he wasn't interested. I felt guilty mostly for us not making the most of our day although I did get him to come to the park. Outside of that we played 'adventures' as we made a tent in the living room and explored the house as of it was jungle. Mostly though he had us playing two player KNACK. At the end of the day I know he was totally happy doing what we did. 

As I say, we went to the local park and upon each visit to the children's play area I overheard young dumbasses loudly swearing as they tried to impress their crowd. Every park seems to be strewn with vulgar graffiti and language which is not for the ears of the youngsters. The young aggravate me who are like that. My sons innocence is the last vestige of paradise In my life and I don't take kindly to it being threatened. But neither can I punch a child in the face for being a child. 

With my son in bed I am sat watching The Strain on my Kindle. I'm only watching two main programmes at once this month. The other being True Detective which is great. My chill time has been lessened lately with one investigation or another plus my stepson suddenly staying over. I have one more hurdle of an investigation to do and I will try and take the rest of this year off. I don't take holidays from work and so I deserve evenings to myself.