Sitting Sunday and cinema plus the magic of mushrooms.

I've said that I've been thinking about drinking etc of late. This Saturday night I had magic mushrooms fall into my hands. I've done them before and had a strong effect from them. This was years ago you understand. 

A part of me was curious to do them again and yet a large part felt I was too old to put my body through such torment. What if I had a heart attack or they poisoned me? In the end, I stirred them in a yogurt and down the hatch they went. This time I'm made provisions for any eventuality. I felt a heart flutter and the old feeling in my nasal passage which lsd used to create as a teen. But it never really took off. I went to bed ok and on time with a sense of relief and disappointment. Today I've felt a little more alive though. As if I'm living my life rather than watch it slip away. 

I'm feeling a resurgence of who I am socially, or at least who I used to be. 

I had chosen not to go to the gym today in order to let my joints rest up. I spent half the day watching episode 1 of many to series which have all started new seasons. Add in playing on the ps4 and that makes for a lot of sitting down. But I've enjoyed myself. At tea time I dragged myself to the cinema to watch Crimson Peak too. The cinema was quiet and It felt odd to finally be out of the house. 

It's 10 pm and I'm waiting for a Youtube upload to finish so I can start another over night. 

My mind seems to be flirting either the idea of a girl more and more. Not a particular girl, but someone new. I need to feel more alive. I think. I'm not certain.