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Monday, 23 October 2017

Keep your head down and beg.

The gains are coming. My body weight is rising and I feel stronger. 
I’m still in a really antisocial mood and people aren’t helping. I’m not about to note the whys and wherefores because I know I’m fine, I’ll forget about it. If I wrote it down, it would live on. 
My wonderful son has evolved from Warhammer to Magic The Gathering which is a card based game the likes of Pokemon. 
We visit these nerdy wonderful stores and I particularly enjoy hanging out there. 

My efforts to keep a clean slate at work is successful so far. I just endeavour to keep my head down. I just want a peaceful life. 
Something else that I’m enjoying doing but not getting views for is my YouTube channel. 
So if you are reading this and are an awesome human being who wants good karma to come their way then I beg you to go search ROBODAD1 on Youtube and watch one of my videos. 
I would be eternally grateful. 

Xxx  

Sunday, 15 October 2017

With the best intentions..

I start this new week with the best of intentions. Thou shall not cock up. But that’s just not something that usually goes to plan. 
Work is where I feel I’m surrounded by colleagues looking at me while tutting and shaking their heads. The sense of being the one who needs watching because I’m bound to fuck up is something that is making my work life horrid. 
I will endeavour to CONCENTRATE. 

I have took the advice of the gym bloke, to just eat and eat so as to move the needle up the  weight chart. It’s that simple. 
Yes fat will be gained but in the spring, fat will be lost. 
So I am eating. And eating. 

I currently weigh 150 pounds and want to hit 160 for the first time ever. 

My goals are to get bigger and better.
My mind has air pockets in it though. I don’t know that I’m ever about to realise I’ve forgotten a thing.
I don’t see the mistakes until it’s too late. 

But god knows I will try. 

It will take a hood year to have people change their perception of me but I’ll take it one step at a time. 

Tuesday, 10 October 2017

Fucktards

Yes, Yes I’m back. For how long? I don’t know. I’m currently going through a hard time in s small way. It’s become apparent to me, that now I’m in my mid 40’s, nobody wants me. I actually notice younger and older woman don’t even register my existence and even close people don’t seem to be that supportive anymore. Washed up at 43? Hell no. But I’m battling the world in some ways. I’ve had a day where I feel I’ve been on the end of unnecessary rudeness and it really got my back up. My social media spreading of my YouTube channel gets no support and my discipline in the gym journey gets no recognition either. It’s enough to make me wonder why I get out of bed. Just feeling pretty unloved. But on the other hand, I have a strong reflex against feeling too sorry for myself. It’s called the fuck you button and I walk about with it firmly staying pressed as I walk around silently among those fucktards who look down on me. There we go. Release, to someone who always listens. My blog. I salute you.