I awoke through the night still insure if I'd see morning but I have made it now. Stomach ache now seems down to hunger. I'm enjoying cereal at work along with a calming cup if tea. When I had woken in the dark I'd had two thoughts circling my head. One was that I had stomach cancer and two was that I should call my medium interview write up The Knowledge.
If I do call my interviews that though will it make me have cancer or are the too unrelated.
This morning I decided to reduce my sugar and coffee intake and to get a healthy amount of sleep.
There was a good scene in Flight where a cancer patient talks of letting go of the control we try to have over our destiny. God has it all in his hands and we should just give in to that. He has a plan for us and even the bad things are for the best reason. So I guess I'm following whatever lesson I'm meant to take from last night and take better care of myself. I thought walking more and not drinking or doing drugs was enough but it would appear more is needed.
I look forward to seeing my son this evening with the thought that I may not have. What's also good is that I have always made it clear to him everytime how much I love him so that in the event of me dying, he would know, which means I can in effect die happy at any time ( but not he happy to due you understand). As you can imagine, if I did get cancer I'd be hard work. One funny turn and I condemned myself to blogging goodbye to this cruel world. Bloody men.
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