My son made my day by saying "I love you dad" as he climbed Into my bed before we got up for school. He ate his cereal and watched 'Despicable Me' in my bed. He looks so small in it. It was an overcast day to start with but still t shirt weather. Work was easy if you ignore the trying to make myself seem just the same as the other workers. Blending in is difficult when you're with people who think themselves normal. But don't we all suffer from believing we are right about the world?
The working day crawled slowly to an end and I went to buy some food from Iceland. The cashier was cute but I never stared , in fact she would have thought I never looked at her.
Speaking of females though, I thought I saw a worker from Haworth who works at Cobbles And Clay. It may not have been her but it was uncanny. Maybe she was somewhere in my mind because she'd made an impression on me since I'd seen her two weeks ago. This girl in question is 25 ish and blonde. Now in all reality, I have no interest. Plus in all reality I wouldn't stand a chance. But as a make believe girlfriend in another reality, well then I really like her. Fantasy is much better than reality. At 40 years old I believe my chance has passed. Any new partner I get will be in their late 30's and have baggage of some sort. My baggage and their baggage would be too much for me to bear.
This is why I believe I'll be single for forever more. I'm ok with that , but that doesn't mean I won't have relationships in my head.
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