Pre sleep blog

Just a little blog then before I go to bed.
Swimming with my son was the highlight of the day.
He abandoned his arm bands in the baby pool and sunk as I told him he would. But he was very brave for trying. He does seem to float well without them but his confidence got the better of him.
We had a great day together and today I left him without any sadness. After all I see him tomorrow anyway.
As usual his mother was not yet home when we arrived. What followed was the usual awkwardness as we sat outside being stared at by the children playing out. They knew I once lived at this address and they knew that I no longer did and had in fact been replaced by a new man.
It was awkward when she did arrive with her not-so -new- man and I had to avert my gazes he waited for me drive off.
I complimented myself on still not looking at him. He is invisible to my eyes. I really have never seen him.
I hope that she feels like time has stopped still when she wonders what I am doing nowadays too because when I think about what she might be doing , I too realise I would have no idea.
It's been 18 months ish since we split. But since I have not entertained a new lover , time for me has frozen.
I am in locked in stasis it seems. I love it too.
Three times this weekend I had people suggest that I may have a new lover one day. I told them all NEVER with a defiance that was every bit as fully believed as when I first stated it.

After I and prepared my things for the early work start tomorrow and read about hypnosis along with suggestibility, I was at a loose end. I set off to the station only to discover it closed.
I had known deep down that I should not go , yet go I did. I wasted fifteen minutes of my life.
I didn't have a coffee in the evening either in the hope of having a good sleep tonight after my son broke my sleep a few times last night and it culminated in him peeing on me in my own bed.
Kids eh?
Anyway, I enjoyed listening to the show I did with my brother this afternoon. I also finished writing my next one which I will record on Tuesday.
Here starts another week of busy thoughts and not enough sleep.
Bring it on.