To live in the present

A whole Sunday to myself. I awoke at 7:40am and sat upright to watch an episode of Walking Dead series 3. I followed that with a chapter of Abarat. I've chosen to go to see American Hustle at lunchtime and tie in a walk into Bradford to perhaps purchase some new clothes and if I'm lucky, a coat. I do enjoy full days to just roam and please myself. I can never decide if if it's a sad thing to enjoy. I awoke from a dream of being married to my sons mum again last night. A weekly occurrence. I was overjoyed to be released from the suffocating feeling. I'm sure she would have similar dreams. I mean nothing against her in the real world. She could be replaced with any woman and I'd feel the same or so I tell myself. I don't think there's a woman out there who would fit with me any different. I'm not lonely, I can say that with honesty. People piss me off, it's really that simple. Just like a wasp annoys you in summer while you drink sugary drinks in the sun. 'What a miserable twat' I imagine folk must think about me, but the truth is quite the opposite. My maker has designed me to be fully functional as one complete unit. I say this with the knowledge that this only works now that I have my child. He is my electricity. 

There's a silence in my bedroom today but it's charged with a hum. I can hear........electric? Static? I'm not sure. Hey I've just had a wonderful thought. I could go for a coffee in Bradford today and feel quite the artist. I do feel a sense of poetry as I sit alone and contemplate in a coffee shop. 

But it does sound like a good idea to be amongst people more. Near, not interacting with. To feel like I exist alongside society but I can walk away unnoticed at any time. 

My fathers female cousin (I think) has joined my film club via Facebook and it's good and a tiny tiny bit odd to be in contact with someone who I've had so little to do with, but who is family non the less. 2014 has had a great start so far. I want this year to be that of simple pleasures and no stress. To read, to walk, to think and to feel if possible. To enjoy the days and embrace the moment. To simply LIVE in the PRESENT.