NOW

I'm not sure there will ever come a day when I don't delight in the fact that I live alone. The hours are entirely mine to fill with different things that bring me joy. I'm never told to turn it off or stop earlier than I wanted. There's no sharing. No compromise. I love every tiny thing about it. But it wasn't always that way. As a teen I would stare out of my bedroom window at the clouds as the night sky turned to starlight and wonder what the world had in store for me. It was different than what I'd been taught by film and tv would come my way. A model for a wife and a large house in the country never happened. I searched hard for someone to love and years and years of torment passed until I discovered the who I loved was inside me. One of whom was the real ME and the other was what became my son. Now I love two people in my life, me and my boy. I wish I could go back and tell myself that everything would be ok one day. 

So if you wondering the same thing about your own life. I am tljng you that EVERYTHING WILL BE OK SOMEDAY so enjoy now while you have it.