I worked 16 hours yesterday until 11pm where upon I went home directly to bed.
But along with the exhaustion came a shedding of skin and a kind of rebirth occurred. Whilst listening to Gary Numan on 6music he played some tracks which led me to buy albums via iTunes immediately. Then I played these albums into the night and heard music which excited me for the first time in many years.
This noise made me remember who I was inside my shell, deep down at its core. Whilst not all of that is a 'good' thing to be reminded of, I felt reinvigorated by the vision. A burst of self belief filled me even though it was so hot at work that I'd taken my t shirt off because I was alone, and I don't like seeing myself naked even though I'm perfectly 'normal' in size (proportion wise).
It felt like being a late teen again and having a band or two to follow as your own. Reclaiming your identity in a way.
So I feel my shields are fully charged now and I can refocus my energies on to whats important to me.
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