Sisters wedding.

My sisters wedding went very well I must say. The speeches shuck something loose on me though. The groom gave a moving speech on a number of issues which I managed to not weep at by concentrating on pretending to mess with the camcorder with which I was recording them. 

But during the night, high in red bull, I woke and his words came flooding back causing tears to wet my face and pillow. Words of love and respect had blossomed in my half asleep brain and I pictured myself having to give a speech about being proud of my son etc and I knew it wouldn't be possible without bawling. My respect for the groom grew more from his speech and how well he handled it. 

I think some of my tears were also from actually telling my step kids that I loved them both on the night and a bit by the thoughts of how my marriage failed. I guess I just all in all felt more in touch with my feelings. I ended up cursing brain as I tried and failed to get back to sleep. I watched Netflix here and there from 5am. 

My Sunday morning consisted of meeting a bloke in relation to our ghost endeavours and then returning my suit. As I was in Halifax I thought I would try the Vue cinema. The ticket for parking wouldn't allow me to just pay for two or three hours but made the minimum payment be £5.50 for six hours. This was a Sunday too!. I paid and was annoyed. I followed the stairs downwards and outside before I found the cinema entrance. Then I rode the winding escalators back up to the box office. I saw the next film up was one I wasn't particularly arsed about. I figured this would cost another £9 to see this film and so I thought I'd cut my losses and lose over an hours wait, so I just left. I was still annoyed that I'd paid £5.50 for ten minutes parking but I was minimising damage. 

I even skipped my idea to drive to my free showings at cine world in favour if going home. 

My afternoon was mostly a case of watching LUTHER series 3, reading my book and eating. 

I'm looking forward to a three day weekend with my son next weekend. Balance will be restored. 

Life roles onwards as normal for me now. As other peoples lives change and fluctuate, I try and keep mine the same. 

My sisters father and girlfriend spoke to me last night and came up with the opinion that I would meet another woman in my life and I couldn't stop it from happening. This was based on their joint opinion that I was ' too young to be on my own'. It was frustrating for me because I was adamant that I'd found happiness and yet they were convinced that they knew best. The thing is, I could accept that they knew better because they had more life experience than I. 

I guess who was right will be determined in the future.