4:20 am. My mind wants to be communicating with people. I think I need a couple of days off from Facebook, OI and E mailing. 
I was so busy writing a piece for our website, that I totally forgot to ring my Medium lady which was unforgivable as finding her in the first place had filled me with joy. Things have snowballed to such a degree that one thing is as exciting as the next. I am ready to be out from my mums now. I worry about being lonely and my starting to unravel again mentally. But what is different this time is you dear readers. I can talk to you, even though you don't talk back, I am never alone as long as someone reads.
What dawned on me the other day was that all this ghost related stuff which I am currently embroiled in, means that the dead are making me more happy than the living. 
The sun came enough for us to work with the shutter up yesterday. There is a spring in your step if the sun is playing outside. People seem optimistic because of it. I hope I can stay positive throughout this year. If you remember, due to my separation with my wife in Feb, I have ruled this year out as a'Gap Year' . 2012 I will be dusted off and ready to get on with my new life. I'm not sure that I even need the final cry that I had promised myself. I don't feel remorse anymore for no longer living with my son as we are getting by just fine. He has been sleeping over a couple of times so I've had my cuddles in bed to calm myself down. Even this year so far has felt really positive.... But it's time now, two months on, to evolve again from under my mothers care and fend for myself once more.