My ex used to be dyed blond but today she was a very dark brown and resembled my step daughter. This is a very common reaction to a break up. I did something similar, I joined 'movies unlimited' so that I can watch as many films as I wish at the cinema  for £13 a month. I will go on Sunday, maybe even walk out of one and into another. This is the life I desired and I shall pursue it. I feel as though I am swimming against the tide. As I watch this film about prisoners I see that I am going to share a similar fate. Alone in a small room for hours on end. This is a punishment and yet I choose to be like that. Although who knows what the future will bring. I can say that I am happy though without any hesitation and I hope my ex is too. My close mate's wife is going to go round to see my ex as a friend tomorrow as my mate and I go meet up with other friends. I hope all is well.