My initial feeling of living alone? I feel guilty that I sit alone in a peaceful house when my son and ex and step kids all busy themselves. Although if I was a fly on the wall, the kids would be in their bedrooms, my son would be watching tv and my ex would be reading or on the phone. However, I still feel guilt inbetween Having  my son over. It will pass I hope. I don't miss my previous incarnation, I just feel like I have shirked some responsibility. But I have in fact  put more effort in really.
It will take time to acclimatise. Although doing what I want when I want is priceless. I am just missing the Internet, Sky tv and a big screen.  

I feel unsteady.
Unsure
Afraid??
 
Hey. Fuck it. It will be ok.