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Tuesday, 24 May 2011

"I like my pessimism, it helps me deal with my inevitable failure". That is an excerpt from my diary from 2007. It makes me smile. It sums up who I am most of the time. But I enjoy my failings these days for what they are, quirks. I found myself writing in a book which I started in 1994 in my first house as I lived alone. My hopes and fears written in biro in an ever growing folder which I keep rediscovering and adding to. This is a life diary not a year diary. One book to span the rest of my evolution, or devolution, as maybe more apt. It sounds a little odd but I am looking forward to my living room being decorated so that I can buy a writing desk for a corner of my living room where I can start work once again on 'My Life Story'. I used to put a lot of effort into that when I lived alone as a twenty one year old. I have written and drawn my life from birth until 1995. This is contained in three volumes so far and when I moved in with the girlfriend who be become my wife, I had to stop doing it. But I knew if I ended up single again that I would push on with with relish. I have almost been here for two months and as things start to settle down for me, the urge to jump into my last fifteen years re emerges. I am self obsessed it is true. But I find myself such a puzzle. I never really know what is around the next corner. The point of my Blog from your perspective is not to be interested in my life but if I put open myself up here, then maybe you will identify with some aspects and take comfort that it isn't just you who feels like you do. I hope to open up more but need more encouragement. That will come when my reading figures rise to what they were in November of last year. For whatever reason I had about 25 readers a day. This week I am lucky to get 10 a day. So add yourself as a 'Follower' if you want me to divulge personal comic tragedy. We haven't really heard my embarrassing tales, of which I have many. 

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