Stood stating out of the window and wondering how to find happiness was something I did from being a teenager. I wondered if I was going to be given the gift of a person who would change my life for the better. I felt trapped and alone with myself. 
I was looking in the wrong direction. I should have been looking inwards because I knew I could be happy when occupied alone. Now I find the most happiness alone as no one spoils it for me. The idea of ' sharing' my time seems preposterous. The notion of spending a long time with another human being is surely going to grate eventually. I have friends who I am close to and feel at ease around, but even we would want a break if we were living together for a year. So solitude in myself is now a proven fact and to top it all off I feel great in myself. It's all a bit strange but it's about what ever works for you.