Working day was another hot one with this strangely warm weather. Once I was home I set about watching 'Eastbound and Down' which I was really impressed with...and  I do like Danny McBride. Then I started play on 'Mafia 2' on the PS3 and I really got into it. It struck me afresh what a peaceful and pleasant time I was having (as much as I always miss my boy when he is not with me). 
There are some great sunsets at the moment and they always remind me of the nineties when I would stare out of the window of my bedroom at our old house whilst listening to The Orb on repeat. My mind would have trouble contemplating the future. Would I get married and have kids or become depressed and end it all. There are lots of strong emotions when you are a teenager, its like there are no half measures. This is before I got my hands on drink and drugs too. I am almost returning to that time of my life nowadays as my mind has time to think things over again on an evening when I am alone. There was a world of possibilities at Seventeen and now I have reduced it down to two options. Happiness alone of misery with a partner. This has made the rest of my life easy to plan. This way I get to concentrate on my son and have time to please myself doing what makes me happy. I write this also knowing that in ten years time I could well read this back and think I was talking shit.