Watching 'Aventureland', two things struck me. 1/ Here is another character that Jesse Eisenberg plays who I see as being similar to myself in their awkwardness. It reminds me why I've stopped looking for/ believing in love in all it's forms. 
2/It made me realise that against my better judgement, the love bug in me isn't completely dead and that scares me.
In this film there are lots of stolen glances at a girl. I did that recently. But my thoughts were "If it had been earlier in my life I would have created some obsession with this person. However I am out of the game for good". 
But then I catch myself thinking about this person and I don't know why. I think when you don't know someone very well you can fill in all the gaps with what you would want them to be like. It's only when the reality is unleashed that the flaws bring it all down. But I think I still enjoy the romance of imagining and not knowing. The women in my life are like chapters in a book. I really am not looking to add another miserable chapter. It just isn't like it should be, which is like it is in the movies. I think that's why I watch films all the time. I prefer the fake reality.