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Sunday, 16 October 2011

I had my step son over on Friday and we went to the cinema to watch 'Abduction' and then to mine where he played 'Heavy Rain' on the PS3. He stayed with me through most of the next day until I dropped him off and picked up my son. So for three days I have had company in my house. I was making lunch on Saturday and it brought back the memory of being part of a family and having people around in the same house. It was nice I have to say. I can understand that side of having someone live with you but unfortunately in my case there was too many disagreements with my spouse. The problem I have with people start when they need something from me. If I can exist in the same space then I'm fine. My ex constantly starts to suggest something and then says "oh it doesn't matter" and so I know that I will not like it. It starts me on a low mood for hours after because it has something to do with me seeing my son I gather. All I have in the world is my son and it upsets me guessing what she will say. 
With me not drinking, on the one hand I have no defences, I don't go and drown my sorrows but on the other hand I don't send myself in an alcohol low mood and do anything stupid that will perpetuate my feelings. Over three months now off drink and drugs. The simple life suits my personality better but it makes some ups and downs harder to manage. Still I feel that I am on the right path as if I drink I am not sure if I would ever stop. 

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