Disconnected

I've arrived at 7pm to see a show at 7:30. I'm sat in a so far mostly desolate auditorium to see a Facebook friend perform his 'Mentalism' show. He is a similar mind illusionist to Derrin Brown or the more local Dynamo. I've been on Jam Radio with Liam a few times as he is a friend of a ghost team colleague of mine.
I came to show him support, although I do have a strong interest in what he does and how it can help me prove the existence of spirit as we as disprove the use of fakery.
It came down to a toss up between this and seeing the new film, Stitches which stars Ross Noble. Noble was simulcasting to 125 cineworld cinemas after to do a Q and A. That sounded good but in the end, as I say, I may be able to use Liam's experience in the future.
The metal seats could be the death of my arse cheeks though. Much like they were during the cult films which were shown locally recently which I attended. The seats there were torturous.

Well there's a suitable hypnotic soundtrack looping in here as more people arrive. I guess it sets the mood. It's unfair to say its cheesy... It's necessary I would say. Although its looped once now I think, unless they all sound the same.
Under the stage curtain I have seen a pair of black shoes steadily pacing the length. I hope this has not been a reveal of a blindfold trick which is now spoilt.
You have to try and guess how these things are done , it's like the rules of illusionism etc.
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Well firstly Liam just walked on to zero applause because he didn't get introduced or indeed introduce himself a la many stand up comedians. I cringed terribly on his behalf. One live wired mic and and one wireless mic which wasn't working which meant Liam had to leave the working mic and continue to cross the stage and deliver some lines without the aid of electric.
He ploughed on like a pro seemingly unfazed.
As for the mentalism itself he did his stock tricks but mixed them up with each other. Fair play to him... And my respect.
He asked one member of the audience to choose a short name which they did. It turned out to be Rosie. BUT he had actually written Rosey. Now yes that's the same name so it's impressive but misspelling it takes away the pizzaz.
He started with a ball throw into the audience which went to nobody and no one wanted to get it. CRINGE!
But then his act went on to demand about ten different volunteers. It was like pulling teeth to be honest and I just looked away.
It was a thankfully short first half.
Then behind the curtain there was music and then none. Then too loud and then too quiet. Following this was a tap on the wireless mic which was followed by "I'm sorry about that" from the venue guy.

The second half is to be about mediums and 'Victorian spiritualism'. He knows what I do and hopefully I'll enjoy that half more.

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The second half consisted of more mic trouble and reluctant audience participation. I tip my hat to Liam for pursuing what he loves. I'd seen this act on Derrin brown DVDs but I still don't know how he does it.
As soon as it was over I was home again.

I felt anxiety disappearing. I had been locked in a state of tension more than I knew. I looked on Facebook and felt I was searching for human interaction in a way. My ex girlfriend had been on and I liked a couple of her posts.
I can't quite shake the feeling of social separation which I felt this evening. But then I could easily still have been married and society would still feel distant, more distant even.

I did what I always do....I put a film on. PUSHER 2. I'm tired now

I think I use films as a drug substitute to push reality away every time.

I'm starting to feel DISCONNECTED with life and others. It's probably not healthy.