I'm over halfway through this transitional year. I've been so very lucky to have not encountered bad times. I hope my life continues on this course for many years. I feel as if I have been released from shackles, not from the marriage though as I thought it was, but from myself. I feel there's a new set of rules know that are tailored to make me a better version of me. For example it's the little things that I am more thankful for like food in the freezer or the time to sit and do some painting. As long as I have enough money to meet my bills etc then that's fine. 
I don't want to return to eating plates of cheap frozen mixed veg, which was an all time low in the mid nineties. It helps all round that I cannot afford alcohol. It has done me the world of good. 
I really just want to make me son proud of me.