"you don't want to be happy, it makes you worried that it'll end and you'll be more miserable". This is just one of the lines from the comedy 'PEEP SHOW' which while making me laugh in the programme, seemed to be true of me. There are two characters, one of who is a lazy selfish wannabe musician and wants to be cool and the other is a square non cool OCD office nob. I see myself in both of them. 

My step daughter agreed to come to the cinema with me. It was her sixteenth birthday and so I was honoured to get some of her time. We watched THE WOMAN IN BLACK. I personally do not find anything scary about it but the rest of the crowd did. She said that she would like to come on a ghost investigation. We'll see what I can sort. So basically communication with her has made me feel much better and I even got to take her to see my mum. Sixteen is a scary age. I managed to get the chance to tell her that I was here for her but I sensed her feeling a little awkward so I stopped before saying more. 
I even got the courage up to say "it that your mum's new blokes car?"  
I said "I just want your mum to be happy that's all I'm bothered about". I felt a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. 
The message of good will should now eventually permeate through to the family and my stepdaughter also carries my paranormal groups info with her so they can see that I have in fact been busy and am very happy, thank you very much. 

I feel so much more positive. I knew today would be a good day. 
A clean sheet. 
I even managed to get a cuddle from my son whilst I picked my stepdaughter up. I'll see him tomorrow. 


Now what's around the corner to fuck things up?