The long weekend of the queens jubilee included some great moments with my son as we spent hours at Hesketh Farm where we fed a calf and held guinea pigs as well as played in a maze and in the farm park. Just had a wonderful play really. We also went to the media museum which he loves.
I do enjoy hanging out with him amd we really seem to get on and understand each other.
Outside of him, I watched five films at the cinema and a few others at home which led to reviewing here and there.
I also did a ghost investigation in Keighley Business Centre and that was quite good plus recorded and edited my radio show. So I feel that I have crammed a lot in to my break.
I'm a little distracted as I write this as I'm listening to audio from ghost night on my dictaphone and so my concentration is split.
So in the morning it will be Wednesday already. Time seems irrelevant to me these days. I have done a great job of creating a bubble out of the world. Because I am single and have no one but my son to guide me, it means that I neve have to do what I don't want to do. Every moment can be doing what I choose and that means that I NEVER am just sat like you do when you are a couple. My OCD or Autism flavour motivates me beyond normal time allowing to my favourite things. There is no stop and rest if I'm awake. I shut my eyes late in bed and put the iPad away. Then I awake and within ten minutes I am watching a film or something. Time is sand falling through our fingers. But I struggle to identify weekdays anymore and especially weekends. I don't drink and so never consider what day it is. If I have my son then it's all him. If I don't then I continue what I do most of the time. Nothing interrupts my swimming in myself.
Happiness is not having other people inject upon your thoughts.
Rather than get lonely....I want to disappear more.
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