I got up at 7:30 in the am because I could picture myself finishing off some tv series I'd been watching. If this is the most pressing thoughts I have then I live a great life. I watched the last three episodes of 'Workaholics' series 1 and then the last four episodes of 'Game Of Thrones' series 2. I turned the tv off in order to T-cut the van wings and listen to a movie podcast plus walk to the co-op for a few bits.
I laid out my third tarot practice layout and wrote it all down for another day.
Something compelled me to FINALLY dig out my camcorder tapes of my son as a baby of 0-4 which have sat about in the tapes unprocessed until now. I was expecting complications to arise but no, it went smoothly enough. This meant that I was watching an almost forgotten few years of my life and my marriage. A lot of memories came flooding back but very little of my marriage due to the nature if me only recording my interactions with my son alone. It was as if nobody else existed. Add to this the fact that this morning I had written in and read some of my ''Words Of Wisdom' a4 book with has covered various phases of my life since 1994. I was staggered by the different areas of growth and deay which were verbalised in those pages.
The outcome of this day was that I have a massive reason to be happy. I should be proud of my documentation skills and praise myself for staying sane alone.
My son returned tonight for our big day tomorrow at the Star Wars Fan Day. I showed him the camcorder footage and even he could see how I'd loved him from the very start.
We cuddled each other in appreciation of each other.
I put him to bed like he was the most fragile angel in the universe, and he cuddled me like I was the last father left.
A very reflective day but a positive one all the same.
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