My workmates have been told they all have a lot of work land on their laps and it has been greeted with a variety of responses from disgust to 'just do it'.
I had to cancel going to the preview of The Internship and give my ticket away in the light of working over. It felt like the right decision.
I was drinking my Pepsi Max (less sugar, less taste, less enjoyment) when I caught my eyes reflected in my overhanging light box. Looking out from my eyes I felt I was inside a busy world of thought and emotion and yet looking back at me was a stones faced Mount Rushmore looking bloke.
It made me appreciate the absurdity which is 'other' people. My workmates resemble small walking meat sacks but I have to remember that within themselves there are different sprawling worlds. Like inside a Tardis from Dr Who (bigger on the inside).
It was only last night with my son that we were having conversation about some playground friends annoying him and making him lash out a bit. I explained to him that in order to 'win' he needs only to 'look' not bothered.
I said "There's nothing wrong with being annoyed, but don't let others know that you are"
As much as I actually want him to be more 'emotionally free' than I am, I didn't like hearing that he had his moments at school when some other silly cunt was being a dick and the teacher wasn't listening properly.
I know that it doesn't get any better as you progress through school, or life for that matter.
I'm still confronted by cock ends as I go about my life and my only defence is to look as if they don't bother me. I find no fun in others (except my son).
Where does that come from? Is it unhealthy?
Don't know... But I'm happy, isn't that the most important thing?
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