Invisible bad qualities.

If I am to not include other people's suspected opinions of me and just tell you how things look from where I'm standing, I'm in a good place. 

I have hours of free time which I choose to fill with my friends in the paranormal investigation team which I contribute towards. Outside of that I try and watch one film a day as a rule and post them on Facebook page The Whitehouse Film Club . So I write for PPS and write this blog and my diary plus now a digital diary too. I read most days time permitting and drink pop and coffee. I'm come and go as I please  and have my health. From my angle, I'm set for life. No more alterations to do, just sit back and see things gently change around me through the years. 

No black moods, no hangovers, no partner giving me shit and no self hatred. 

As soon as others are pushed towards me though, something always gets seen in a negative light. 

I don't want to socialise like I did when I was twenty and shirk invitations if possible. 

But as I say, from my angle I'm happy. 

I like to watch life from the sidelines and the thought of 'eating out' is not seen as a treat but more a waste of money. Most of the fun I have is the saving of money in some way. Rather than eating at a pizzeria then just buy a large supermarket one for half the price. That for example gives me pleasure. 

All my bad points only bother other people. 

Being selfish isn't something that upsets ones self. The same goes for bing ignorant or rude.... If you are the only person in a room it doesn't register. 

Not being affectionate enough or not wanting to hear about other people's days? All redundant if you are alone. 

Put another person in the room and the qualities we just looked at jump up into view. 

So my answer is don't have that second person in the room. 

Lonely? No... Happy.