I have decided that my next blog feature will be a look at eleven years ago. I have chosen the date 29th May 2000 to start with and then I shall see what has happened near that date over various years and see what can be learnt, if anything. But for today...I spent more time than expected talking to my ex at her house. I was asking about my step kids and if they are causing trouble since they're teenagers. It seems that there is a
sense of loss of family with one of them. My ex said that one of them lamented the loss of my side of the family and blamed me leaving one evening for his sudden unruliness. It's mostly talk but I admit some truth will be buried in his explanation of dropping standards at school etc. I need to make more of an effort to see them. I do have the time and feel a responsibility. It's difficult being an adult when inside you are just a child that's been around for a long time. I told my ex that I had finished with drink and she was amazed. Infact I think that she thought I was lying. I feel like a different person even in the short time since we split....but actually by that I mean I can recognise the real me nowadays when I look in a mirror and not some fake lookalike with a personality that was created for me.