I went to a private household with a friend in my ghost team. There were four of us in his attic and we managed to contact a past on relative with the glass and also with the table which moved in a whole new way to what I have previously witnessed. The family father and son were amazed at what they were seeing and that made me feel good. I came home and listened to the audio and I think we caught a couple of good responses but the words were hard to make out for sure. 
I watched The Bill Hicks Story and it inspired me to be myself for myself. I think when you see anyone's life packed together inside an hour or so it seems more meaningful. I am on the right path now as I have said, so I am no longer under the sticky thumb of regret at wasted time. I am doing things that I hope will make my son proud. Proud that I followed my own path no matter what got in my way. As long as he is happy with me then I have no other target. Somedays I feel less in touch with the world than others. I wondered this afternoon whether I had any feelings between taking things as being hurtful or not caring at all. In other words, do I only gave two extreme opposite emotions, being too teary and soft or having a Fuck You attitude. I still have not started the latest blog project that I said I would be keep on reading and by next week I will have. I have decide to skip into the past in five year jumps but around the same date. I look forward to having you at my side as we reflect on a single meaningless life that has gone from nearly being the end of me to being the making of me and seeing exactly the path that was chosen.