The first day of 2013. My slate is clean. I can only look forward to the next 364 days and hope they keep me happy. I bought my three diaries which structure each year throughout.
So now as the sun descends on the day towards four pm, I sit watching my first film of the year, IN BRUGES. I have all my work things laid out in good time so that it doesn't feel like a bad thing later as my holiday comes to an end and the only thing left is to prepare for work.
So now I have hours of cramming in holiday relaxation and straight to bed before the welcome return of the routine. I'm so very lucky to like my job which allows me time to think, write and even read throughout.
I started the day with a glass of water which I hope to turn into a routine too, but lets not make to a fucking 'resolution', ok?
Christmas had moments when I was surrounded with alcohol or with people consuming it. I looked at the liquid fun and imagined drinking every person's drink which they held.
The feeling shite memory has faded but luckily the knowledge that I hate hangovers still lingers. Maybe my path will cross with alcohol one day in the future ( and so also self destruction) but not yet.
I'm controlling my actions even tighter than ever this year. I will be a ghost locked away in an empty castle and only I will know my comings and goings.
Solitude will be a closer ally. I will continue to blog and so you are one of the few who will have access to what the solitude leads to. Think of it as an experiment in the benefits of keeping others away. On the flip side I hope to do at least on travel weekend with my friend which I pray will put something new in to my brain and may lead to further evolution for my soul.
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