"About Last Night"

I watched 'About Last Night' again on disc. I'd not seen it in years. I'd been a teenager actually watching it in my bedroom the last time.
The film stars a young Rob Lowe and a young Demi Moore plus James Belushi as the alpha male friend. As I sat rewatching it I saw that I'd practically out into practice some of the bad advice from the film into my real life. There was a scene about allowing your girlfriend to finally have a drawer at your place and a scene where Belushi says "never ring her the day after, wait to days, then call her". There were others and more. At 38, my relationship days are over, at my choosing. This film kinds made me happy to remember who I was when I'd watched it the first time but sad that I could now also resonate with the break up in the film. My marriage ran out if gas and the insecurities crept in and obviously the arguments followed.
I simply couldn't handle another break up. Luckily I took very little of use or enjoyment out of any relationship which I did have. God knows I wanted to feel the happiness which they did on screen but I barely rose above indifference once I had got past six months.......which wasn't often. There's something in me which wants to destroy my relationships and now I listen to that voice. As it goes, the voice was right and I'm happier than ever. But I do feel a little short changed. Ultimately movies are to blame for their glossy sheen on life.
I guess with my face and personality I was never going to find the right girl anyway. Plus age somewhat ruins whatever good points you did have until couples are all just wrinkled bags of resentment which cling in to each other as their engines run out.
Oh I don't want to live through losing a partner to death either.
It's just not my scene.