This is me.....

It is so hard to look busy at work after weeks of being quiet. There's only so many times I can clean my printing press. Wipe it down, grease it up and chip all the old ink off and then you're pushing ear buds into nooks and crannies which have collected spray powder.
Now I'm stood. There's a guilty feeling but I have nothing left to do so the day drags.
Annoying my machine seems to groan and squeak more now its clean and oiled. It's as if the crap on it is what aided its use.

The snow outside has melted further today in keighley, West Yorkshire and we thought it was going for good. The forecast however predicts more in a few days time. (I've commented before that talking about the weather is an englishmans back up subject for when he's got nothing else to say. It's certainly true here).
I'm happy to report that my money spending is very low (unlike my recent blog A WEEK IN MY LIFE 1998) and it gives me a feeling of control and an overall calm.
I have a few things to occupy me this year, so if you are to be a regular reader then here's a rundown.

1/ I'm in a ghost investigation team called Pennine Paranormal Society and we have a lot of investigations booked for this year.

2/ I am on Jam Radio each Tuesday on a programme called Radioactive where I throw some film reviews into the mix as well as general cynicism.
Also I am on the 'management' at Jam Radio where I train new DJ's and try and help with the running of the station as a whole.

3/ I have started a project off my back in relation to the paranormal. I am conducting a set of interviews with psychic mediums to hopefully compile together and see what threads are shared among separate individuals.

4/ I also try and do this blog most days (on top of my diary which I've now written for nearly thirty years - I'm 38)

5/ most importantly I have a son who is currently 4. He comes before everything and is like a best friend who I play with. I would argue that without him, I would be thoroughly depressed and alcoholic. ( as it goes I'm 18 months sober).

These distractions add a creative edge to my life and a constant feeling of achievement and progression. It's better than having nothing to show for each week.
I still need to walk more on the whole but this cold weather is enough to stop me. This blog will turn three years old this year and its been an extremely useful tool for me to vent or revisit previous mistakes and try and find a 'positive' to take from it going forward.

Happiness was unheard of ten years ago. I had resigned myself to being without the chemical which caused it.
But as I've said and said on here .. I'm happy now.
I've achieved more than I expected ten fold.
I intend to keep that up by staying positive in the event of others trying to spoil it for me.

I barely recognise myself anymore and yet I would argue that this latest version of me is the truest version to date.