Being here does border on the 'doing more harm than good' for fleeting moments when she asks difficult questions about Feelings. With Nick Jr tv channel playing the same song every thirty mins, the whole deal of my still being in these four Walls is made quite comical. The song goes..." Friends...let's be friends, 
Friends...we can be best friends.."
(as I was writing this she came down crying, " I don't want you to go etc." but then took that back saying that's not true.) 
Difficult times emotionally. 
Fear is what she is feeling because she doesn't know how she will take all the problems on her shoulders but I explained that she already was doing that as I never worried about anything
Important. So she has told me she wants me to sleep over in a spare bed to make her feel better. I'm not complaining. It's a fine line to tread though between being present and being back to normal. I will never go back into a relationship. She is Jekyll and Hyde tonight and now she wants us to drink wine. I've half a mind to say I should leave tonight.