I arranged to meet my friend for a drink and chat. When I rang my ex (as I shall try to remember to refer to her as), she said she had suffered a bad day being lonely already. She had taken the day off work as her lack of sleep had led to her vision going bad. Hopefully the pills she acquired  from the doctor will grant her sleep tonight. However when she arrived at the house after I had seen to the kids tea etc she was upset again and again. She worried me a bit with what she said but then pulled it back to an acknowledgement that she will be ok. I had to remind myself that I have left her and I don't have to do anything that she says. The sooner I can leave the better but there's little point leaving a free place to sleep near my son just to make it uncomfortable and away from her. Tomorrow I am going to meet my sisters ex who remains a friend of the family. I think it's best for us all to see that we move independently of each other. Fingers crossed we will get through these next weeks without fireworks. When I am without her I love it already. But I I love seeing my son a lot too.