Tonight I created a song on MTV Music Generator game and painted a face in watercolours that I was very happy with. So a productive evening to start with and then sat on my backside to watch 'Fighting' with Channing Tatum. 
My ex told me that my stepson is missing me so I am going to drop my son off at 7pm and have my stepson until 9pm. It's difficult to balance everyones perspective on my separation. It should be easier when I get my own address.  
I got teary earlier when my mum said that my son won't remember my living at home with him. That really chokes me up. 
I have to make him feel secure even though I'm not there. My robotic emotions kicked into my defence quickly and I regained composure. Each day holds a variety of emotions. 
This is going to take time to feel normal again but I've got about forty plus years  left yet.
What good am I in a relationship if I can't 'relate'? 
I guess I shall continue my work on this blog and
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I have plans for 2012 already blossoming. This year is time out though. 
I have been thinking about ex girlfriends today. Just reminiscing about various relationships and coming up with the fact I have not been in love. I've loved having new girlfriends from time to time but I've never connected with a single one. And now I'm less   accepting of any nonsense so I'm not settling down anytime soon.