I came home after work to see my boy until I went out to meet a friend. My wife said straight away "can you not go and meet ---?"
She said that she was really panicking about how to afford it once I'm gone. So out of trying to do the right thing I actually text this friend, one hour before meeting him to cancel. I rang first but got no reply. So she had me cancel, to talk about  money worries. Within ten minutes she went to ask her friend over the road some questions. One hour later she's returned. Now she's upstairs talking to someone else on the phone. I cancelled my plans for this??
I think it's a bit of controlling going on here. This is part of the reason it's over. I feel like a puppet on a string as she cries the poor tale and then give in to her asking me to cancel stuff. I feel that I've been stupid giving in again.
But on the other hand I'm wanting her to have her friends convince her that she will manage financially. Plus most of all I was getting time with my son this evening. Tomorrow I want to see my boy fully because Wednesday is the day I will see him from now on. I want to go to Dragon's Den or Blue Frog with him tomorrow. Just he and I.  I have to remember from now on that I did cancel when she asked, and I need to keep that in my arsenal if she starts next time. I feel sorry for my friend now, I should have kept my appointment. 
A part of me is closer to grabbing my little bag and sleeping under another roof so this control stops. I can't handle this for another four weeks. 
I'm giving her £1000 to pay my half of the debt and I'm paying her mortgage this next payment, and still I'm expected to rush to her aid some more because her benefits come at all different times.