She woke me up at 3:30am to talk. Then she went out for a drive to clear her head. It's 8 am and she isn't back yet. So my son got me out of bed at 6 am to watch 'Shrek' and 'Spongebob'.  Today I'm going out alone until about 6pm. This is to get her used to having the kids etc on her own. She says that she would like it if now and again I would stay for a drink. Yes it does sound like a bizarre setup but she doesn't want to be alone and says if I could provide company here and there then the thought of me going doesn't scare her so much. Even she is surprised by her reaction, calm on one hand and desperately clingy on the other. Where as she dreads the long evenings alone, I will relish them. It would be unfair to put someone else through being in a relationship with me because I can't 'Relate'. I am an island and yet I also like company when I choose. She keeps asking me how I feel. How do I feel?? Very glad that I'm going to be out of her embrace but sad that she is struggling with it. Ten years now she has told me all my faults and now I've said I agree. This means that she can't now say that it was working so she has to agree to finish. She wants to finish it too luckily but is petrified about being alone. Whereas I love being alone. 
I'm sorry if I'm repeating myself but it's quite stressful. So if I'm having my boy sleep over two nights a week and taking him out when I just feel like it and giving my wife company as a friend then it's not really like I am going to see my son any less. I am paying for her car and the next mortgage so she has a  chance to sort herself out. It's going to work out better than I could ever imagine, as long as I don't get wildly into debt again.